Silly love song

All you need is love,
It’s celibate like a dove,
There’s no need to pay,
You just follow the lead way.

I would like to know,
How’s our love flow,
Is it shines like a glow?
So that no one can ever blow.

They said that love is silly,
But we already fall deeply,
But why you act gutlessly?
Isn’t it because my love is creepy?

We start at a wedding and just need a week,
And suddenly everything getting freak,
Everybody envy in everything we make,
We don’t care and we don’t need a break.

Suddenly you acting weird and odd,
I just can only hardly pray to God,
You already choose your own pathway,
And you leave me dying on the alleyway.

Now I agree with them,
I give them 100% grand,
They say love is silly fool,
But remember heart isn’t a tool.

This is a great feeling,
It is not a stupid calling,
I’ve been truthful for all this while,
But you stomp my head with hard tiles.

Thank you for accepting the way I am,
I’m glad and happy because you are my man,
Now I already see our love in a different sight,
You said you love me because you don’t want to fight.

I appreciate everything that you’ve done,
Do thankful in everything I’ve gave when I’m gone,
I promise that you in my heart forever,
And yes it won’t fade and die away, never.




-Me-

I’m not a superwoman

When the sun rise at the corner,
I realize that I already be a loner,
I’ve tried not to open my eyes,
But I can’t pretend to accept the lies.

I want to prepare every single meal for you,
And I want the best especially for you,
I want to greet you with warmest morning kiss,
So that when you go to work I won’t miss.

Everything you are is everything to me,
I give you everything without any fee,
I just want to be inside your core,
And I could not ask for more.

I don’t even want to make you down,
But remember that I’m not your clown,
My love to you is superbly infinity,
Nevertheless I stand with my dignity.

Once in a month you have to go,
Leaving me behind with feeling down low,
I keep push myself to smile,
It is because we’re thousand miles.

Every time you go I’ll cry,
I feel like I want to die,
Today I manage to keep the tears,
Because I don’t want to live with fear.

I’ve tried so many ways every day,
I do all this because I want to stay,
All the loves inside is just for 1 man,
But remember that I’m not a superwoman.




-Me-

TABAH

I am freaking worry!

Where are you?

Gosh!

Audacity or stupid

I’ve been watching the whole thing,
You can’t even make me soothing,
I’ve surrender everything,
But you give me nothing.

I surpass my life just to be with you,
And I’m scrutiny what will you do,
Your heart is hard like been glue,
Should I just moo?

You said that you are a vengeance person,
I know from beginning you’ll left me lonesome,
I keep trying my luck because I need you,
The day will comes which you’ll make me blue.

I put totally blame on the cupid,
Because he shows me to be stupid,
Our love story getting rapid,
That is why he cut a bit.

You’re going far away from me,
You make me blind to see,
Thanks for the memory that you instill,
One day I’ll give you the bill.

I still stand patiently here near you,
I don’t know why I still do this to you,
When will this thing stop?
It is because I can’t keep myself from drop.



-Me-

Thump me downward

The galosh already comes to thirst,
Out of sudden he approaches first,
While the wind blow the ashes,
What's more vestiges the great smashes.

There will comes the better future,
Clearly I will show you the nurture,
Even though it used to be fracture,
It edifies us to be more mature.

I note down this as an advice,
Everything happens has it owns price,
Don’t swivel too much dice,
It’s because you might end all the lies.

Don’t you think our love life is tragic?
It happens more than catastrophic,
Hitherto I keep searching the logic,
But yet still I’m waiting for the magic.

Nothing will change your mind,
Albeit I try to turn back time,
The only thing left for me is to mime,
The wound hurt like you squeeze the lime.

Every day the strong wind blow,
I keep running this down low,
I will never to put it as a No,
Because I trust my heart who say so.



-Me-

Hope you happy now







-Me-

Give You Back

I need to know if you were real
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now

I want to give you back
I want to give you back
Somewhere out of here
I want to give you I want to give you
I want to give you back

I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now

That's enough
Just talking about it
I don't mind I don't mind no I
Laugh enough
Just dreaming about it

I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn




-Vertical Horizon-

Deleted

For him,
It’s already over.
For me,
I stay till my last breath.
Like I used to promise before,
And I strongly keep my promise.
It all goes by so fast
And hell yeah the nightmare take forever
While the great night don’t ever seem to last,
Is that fair?
Don’t ask me.
You have the answer.




-Me-

Forfeit in your game

When I did wrong,
You judge me.
You put no to the arbitration.
When you did wrong,
I just let it be.
You know why?
Because I cant stand myself from making you sad.

I never think in reciprocate what ever you’ve done to me,
Never.
It just you cant accepts what I’m telling you.
You need time.
The time that may make you guys deeper,
While you’re faraway from me.
I give what ever you want.
It just,
The sacrifice that I’ve done doesn’t seem look enough for you.

Sorry.
I’ve done my best.



-Me-

Wholly crap!

I thought within these two days of my disappearance,
You’ll miss me much.
You’ll think about me every single second like I did.
But I’m totally wrong.
You’re happy with her.
It’s kinda like I’m giving you guys’ time to rekindle back the lost love.
Have a pleasure love, hun ,
A pleasure love on the other’s hurt feeling, down and aggravated.
Congratulation

-Me-

The Truth is Out There

I’ve checked your page.
There you are.
A picture of you and your girlfriend.
Now I know.
Now I realize.
Everything is just apart of your act.
You pretended that you care for me.
But the truth is you love seeing me hurt.

* Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because i love the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because i love the way you lie.

Dear hun,
You are a great actor.
You manage to play game with my heart.
Now,
I’ve become conscious that you are just like the others.
I thought you’re different.
But you are not.
The person that I love the most bashes my heart the whole time.
Thanks.




-Me-

Black

I ruining my own life because of you








-Me-

A slap across the face

When guy asked if we are okay
and
we say, ‘I’m fine,’
Totally we’re lying!
Truth is we are not fine but we rather keep peace or want the guy to just automatically sense something is wrong.
Yes, we expect men to be mind readers.

The Laconic Mirth

Today I become a baby girl,
I’m struggle to walk slowly,
Even though I keep stumble,
I will stand and continue doing my thing.

Today I become a teenager girl,
Thousand of ignorant things that I’ve done,
I don’t care what others tittle-tattle behind me,
Because I’m happy being in my own humanity.

Today I become an adult,
I see the world beyond my eyes could see,
I choose everything for my own good sake,
That is why I’m still standing beside you.

Today I become someone’s girlfriend,
I pour everything that I have to him,
It’s not because I’m terrified of him,
But he should be given the unsurpassed turnout.

Today I become accountable to him,
My day is to make him in high spirits,
I won’t ever let him down,
Because I know the hurt and the wound.

Together,
No matter what happens,
I’ll be ready in every single thing with you,
You are my partner,
You are my lover,
You are my other-half,
You are my very best friend,
And to let you know that my heart beats just for you,
Once you step away,
My heart stops beating…

I promise you this…
I promise to cherish your life,
I promise to stop pushing you,
I promise to be besides you,
I promise to make you smile,
I promise to be the best lady that you ever had,
I promise to wait for you till the end of my life,
And…
I promise you me…




-Me-

Nurture of a relationship.

My life begins when I meet you,
You make me say I do,
You appear and walk into my life,
And change everything being nice.

I am sure that I already show the real me,
I can’t lie and I can’t pretend to be a ruby,
Because I want you to accept me the way I am,
I don’t conceal myself under a great lamp.

I could pledge to be besides you,
And surely to make you blue,
But I can’t pledge not to give up,
Because I’m not optimistic enough.

We keep belligerent on the same thing,
Every night we hurt each others feeling,
I can’t stand this and I keep pray to my God,
Praying and hoping that He can put a dot.

I lay my heart in the palm of your hands,
It because I capitulate myself to you not lend,
I just want you to be concerned for it,
Because I know I am just like a squib.




-Me-

Jen & Angie

-Me-

A great middle finger

If I’ve been given chance to travel back time,
I would like to travel on the year of 2006.
I just want to raise my middle finger,
And say hi to the new heartthrob.



-Me-

Wake Up!

Hey!
We met just now.
Luckily you wake up early and you come and fetch me up.
I miss you bunch!
I really mean it.
We have our puff.
We have our great time together.
We attend towards our needs.
We have a splendid night without interruption from others.
I feel like the world is ours.

Hey!
Stop pinching me!
It’s hurt!
STOP!
S.T.O.P idiot!

Kedebush!
Boom!
Duk!

Damn!
It’s not tonight.
It happens last night.
And another 2 nights back.
So tonight???
Nah.
It is just my dream.
Wake up!



-Me-

Sparkling the up-to-the-minute sunlight hours

The queen bee spreading its wings,
Knowing that she will be stings,
She still follows the flow,
Because she knows she can’t bow.

The queen bee trying her best,
Trying to make the love last,
It won’t because of lust,
But it all because of promise to make it must.

The queen bee feels like they’re far,
The fasting month doesn’t make them mar,
But the feeling inside getting low,
The path she create already getting slow.

The queen bee’s heart still full with his name,
Nobody’s should be blame,
She willing to suffer the endurance,
It already stated since her existence.

The queen bee just wants to live a normal life,
Flying without others throwing her dice,
She wants to love and being love,
And that is why she was sent from above.

The unfair life making the queen bee anguish,
Thousands obstacles aim her even when she eat sandwich,
She’s not that strong like others see her,
She just wants the male bee to sit near.

Now the queen bee is dreadful under the weather,
The bad nuisance making her feels like to meet the maker,
She can only urge that she can have some time,
To tell him that she’ll wait for him until him dim.




-Me-

Do you really ♥ me?

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A dreadful nuisance

A beautiful butterfly flies around the park,
Suddenly she sees a great spark,
She comes near to see the glow,
And here come her life flow.

The butterfly follows her heart,
Just to ensure she’ll won’t live apart,
Butterfly also needs happiness,
Delightfulness being with him even it a mess.

One fine morning,
Butterfly hears a ding,
She promises to make him happy,
And won’t ever make him drippy.

The butterfly flies merrily in the dark,
She just wants to try her luck,
He grabs her hand and holds it tightly,
While the love inside getting deeply.

As the butterfly flies around with him,
Suddenly she fell into a deep stream,
Leaving him flying behind,
But the butterfly already grind.

He flies with the new butterfly,
Send-off the old beautiful butterfly,
The wretchedness cannot be control,
And the butterfly was been throw by a metal bowl.

Now the butterfly’s wing already broken,
It has been taken,
The butterfly paralyzes,
It won’t be able to fly anymore with anyone else.




-Me-

2.00 a.m

I’m trying so hard to dump you.
But I can’t.
I feel like I’m on my last legs.
I’m dying.
I don’t know what else I should do.
I’m sorry about last night.
I don’t know why I do such thing.

Stupid.
Yes it is.
For your information,
I don’t have any intense to make you worry.
I just want you to live your life happy and blissful with her.
I’m not apart of it at all.
I’m being like this because of you…
Because I love you.

I realized that hun…
I’m not that strong.
You know why I’m being sturdy?
Because I have you besides me.

Hun…
I don’t ask much.
I just want you.
To be with me forever.

I’m nothing to you.
Right?
I’m just a black dot who already dotting your canvas.
I’m just a cat who come and goes whenever you call and need me.
I’m just a pack of your Mitragyna speciosa korth,
You’ll have me when you want to ease yourself,
Then,
You’ll leave me when you feel spanking new.
It’s hurt…

I’m sorry.
If you feel what I feel,
You’ll know…
And I bet you can’t…



-Me-

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Kill time

Yes, waiting is chastised but there still have its own sweetness. But yet I’m still waiting until I can convince myself that ‘he’ is not my other half.





-Me-

♥♥♥

-Me-

The crank personality

This is not a contest,
I’m not going to pick the best,
There’s neither loser nor winner,
Just tell me that I’m not a dreamer.

This is not a game,
There’s no one who should be blame,
We already drown in this merry-go-round,
But I’m the one who suffer in those wound.

This is apart of our life,
And surely we should be proud,
You know why?
Because we are in heaven my oh my.

This is half way of our journey,
We don’t care people call us barmy,
Since we doing everything together,
I just want to live with you forever.

This feeling cannot be stop,
Because now we’re on top,
Why should everyone envy with us?
We don’t even steal their bus.

This is what I called sincerity,
I show you to the entire city,
I am not averse screening you besides me,
Because you had stole the heart in me.

This is what I called first love,
You don’t wear any glove,
This is because I put 100% trust,
And you make my life blast.

There are thousands obstacle in front,
We’re holding hand together even though we can’t,
It’s all because of the great love inside,
And we know in no other way it won’t bite.




-Me-

Wilt pallid petals

A cherish blossom emerge,
Now it’s like the blossom already diverse,
Where does it go?
Is it been buried under the down low?

The blossom relish when the bug is near,
Waiting for the bug step on the next gear,
But the bug taut on the same spot,
Is it waiting for the blossom to put a dot?

Bug flies away to its dreamland,
Leaving blossom cleaning its own pants,
Pledge that it will take blossom to bliss,
Suddenly blossom heart is pleased.

Abruptly come to the mind of the pallid blossom,
Saying that it want to eat dim-sum,
Swiftly everyone think,
Maybe the time will come to its ding.

Today the petals already wilt on the ground,
Finding glue to match it back around,
Everything is just a waste of time,
The only thing left is the blossom can only mime.

The bug still luxuriate itself there,
Forgetting the blossom who come to death,
Closing it eyes while the petal wilt,
Blossom can’t stand being weak.

The story of this wilts pallid petals coming to end,
It just don’t want the bug making her dam,
Blossom life getting pale,
It’s all because of the bug male.



-Me-

A colossal invoke

My dear almighty,
My fortitude is getting lesser day by day,
My life turns upside down,
I’m getting weaker gradually,
I’m afraid if there’s no tomorrow for me,
And I’m afraid if I don’t have much time,
To seek for forgiveness,
To ask for happiness,
To see his smile,
And to tell him that I love him so much.



-Me-