Agree with this!

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."
~ Erica Jong

Tunggang-langgang

Kau kata kau sangat sayangkan aku,
Kau kata kau sangat cintakan aku,
Tapi,
Kebenarannya,
Kau juga sayang kan dia,
Kau juga cinta kan dia.

Kau pandai menipu,
Tapi kau tak boleh menipu aku,
Walaupun aku tahu kau juga banyak menipu aku,
Tapi aku butakan mata hati aku,
Kau tahu kenapa?
Kerna aku cinta kau.

Kau tak pernah mencuba untuk tinggalkan dia,
Apatah lagi menunjukkan kewujudan aku,
Bukan kerna kau takut,
Bukan kerna kau kasihan,
Bukan kerna kau simpati,
Tapi,
Kerna kau sayangkan dia,
Sayang kau dekat dia tak sehebat cinta aku terhadap kau,
Segala ayat-ayat kau kepada aku hanya lah dusta,
Kau memperkotak-katikkan perasaan aku,
Ia bukan patung,
Jauh sekali barang permainan,
Ini perasaan,
Perasaan cinta aku yang tulus.

Kau pernah kata aku unik,
Bagi aku,
Unik sekadar untuk dipandang,
Bukan untuk dimiliki,
Kalau benar kau cinta aku seperti mana yang kau sering katakan,
Kau akan berusaha mendapatkan aku,
Kau akan berusaha mengejar aku,
Tapi,
Aku bukan berlari,
Aku berjalan seiring dengan kau.

Aku kecewa.
Sangat kecewa.
Aku kecewa kerna sampai sekarang kau masih menipu aku,
Aku bukan budak tadika 4 tahun,
Aku mampu berfikir,
Tapi,
Aku menyekat segala input,
Kau tahu kenapa?
Kerna aku cinta kau.

Terima kasih,
Kau berjaya buat aku jatuh cinta,
Dan sekaligus kau berjaya bunuh cinta itu,
Kau membuatkan aku benci cinta,
Terima kasih.




-Me-

Excellent things you’ve done

Congratulation!
You are apart of them,
You manage to break my heart again and again,
You’re getting good in deceitful in our relationship,
You’re now know how to cope being a heart-crasher,
And once again,
Congratulation!
You are now going to achieve a degree of killing my true and sincere love towards you.



-Me-

What else??

You are a thief, who has stole my heart,
You are a carpenter, who nailed my heart,
You are a lorry driver, who impinge me bleeding,
You are a clown, who can make me laugh,
But,
I really can’t accept the fact that lay down in front of me,
That,
You are also a cheater, a liar and a pretender.
How could you do this to me!



-Me-

Stake that exist in me

Ku coba bertahan sekuat hati,
Layaknya karang yang dihempas sang ombak,
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka,
Serahkan cinta tulus didalam takdir…
Tapi sampai kapankah ku harus menanggungnya,
Kutukan cinta ini…
Semua kisah pasti ada akhir,
Yang harus dilalui,
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini,
Yakinku indah…

Aku ingin jadi yang terbaik untuk kau.
Aku ikut setiap perintah kau.
Aku ikut setiap arahan kau.
Bukan kerana aku takut kan kau.
Tapi aku hormat kan kau.
Aku sayang kan kau.
Aku tak nak kau kecewa dengan aku.
Kerna aku tahu setiap perintah kau adalah yang terbaik untukku.

Rasa aku telah kaku,
Sekaku mana pun aku,
Aku tetap setia menunggu,
Walaupun aku sebegini,
Cinta aku tulus,
Cinta ini terlalu agung,
Kerna kau raja yang aku sanjung.

Tapi sekarang,
Aku seperti di campak jauh,
Jauh ke lubuk pelusuk dunia,
Terkapai-kapai aku mencari kau,
Sakit, pedih, kecewa,
Hanya aku yang rasa,
Kau?
Kau gembira menghadapi hari-hari kau,
Kenapa?
Kerna kau gembira bersama dia,
Aku?
Menanggung semua cinta kita.

Betulkan aku jika aku salah,
Hentikan aku jika aku tersasar,
Hanya satu pintaku,
Pegang lah pada janji kau,
Janji-janji yang buatkan aku masih bernafas sampai sekarang,
Bernafas walaupun tersekat.




-Me-

The veracity of my life

I know,
I know that I already done a mistake,
But falling in love with you is not a mistake,
It’s a gift,
I gave you whole of my heart,
I gave you my life,
I gave you everything,
And I promise,
I promise to keep my devoted to you,

I’m hoping that you not making all this as an exception,
Please…
Stop hurting me,
I hurt enough,
The wound inside cannot be heal anymore,
I know honey,
I know that your love is not only for me,
I only ask you to think about me for a second,

Try to be in my shoes for a while honey,
Try to feel what I feel for all of this time,
I know we can’t look back,
Because all the things are already happen,
You broke my heart into pieces,
The only person who can fix it is just you,
Everything already comes to pass,
And I love you more than you do,
Yes.
Yes I’m truly, madly and deeply love you.




-Me-

Vindictive of life

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
I know I can’t beat her,
But I want to be with you forever.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
I just can’t live without you anymore,
Without you my life is bore.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
Having you besides me is more than enough,
Because you are my other-half.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
It’s all because the love inside is getting burst,
I just want a happy ending between us.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
You are apart of me now,
I hope that we can exchange the vow.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
I just being myself,
Who’s put you on my first shelf.

I’m not that cruel,
I’m not that nasty,
And I’m not a horrible person,
I can’t predict what I am going to be without you besides me,
Because I love you so much till the end of my verve.



-Me-

Wishing star

I gape at the sky every night,
Hoping there is a bright shining star,
Waiting for me to make wishes,
Wishes that I hope will come true.

I used to say that your eyes shining like a star,
And it shines through me,
Even though the star is far and hard to keep in a jar,
But you are always there near me.

If I see a wishing star up in the sky,
I’m truly happy and gratified,
I’m hoping that I’ll be granted with 3 wishes,
Then I closed my eyes and make the wishes.

Upon a wishing star,
I wished I can live my life with you forever,
Having a great commitment with you with our new life,
Without interfere from others.

Upon a wishing star,
I wished I can excel in my life career,
Study till I want to vomit,
And achieve the highest echelon of my knack.

Upon a wishing star,
I wished I can round the world with you,
Appreciate every single second when we’re together,
So that when I’m not around you anymore,
You’ll have the greatest memory ever.

You are that someone special,
Who made quarter of my wish are for you,
You know that you’re exceptional,
Because the other-half of me is you.

I believe in my God,
I believe in miracles,
I believe in destiny and fate,
I believe that I can make a difference,
And I have faith that everything that's happens now,
Somehow provide me with good acumen for my future.



-Me-

Take me and place me near to you

Tonight, I'm flying to HEAVEN!
Thanks Honey...
I love u so much!

The way you...

The taste of your lips makes my heart keeps a beat,
You know you didn’t make me weak,
And I…
Trying my best to make you melt inside,
Cause tonight,
You will feel what I’ve been dying to make you feel,
And I…
Want to make this last forever and ever in my mind,
The way you hold my hand,
The way I kiss your lips,
The taste of your skin,
Now it will remember,
Will last forever,
The way you say I’m cute,
The way you say you love me,
And the way you say you miss me,
Now it will remember,
Will last forever in my mind,
I miss you tonight…
I miss you tonight…
I miss you tonight…
I’ll be waiting for this moment…
I miss you tonight…




-Me-

Love happens

Love happens when…
You can’t stop thinking about him,
Every single time is full with his face,
Every time your cell phone beeping,
You are joggle to distinguish that the text is from him,
When you see or hear his name,
You’ll feel that the world is create for you and him,
The world lights up,
When he smiles,
You smile,
When he laughs,
You laugh,
When he cries,
You cry,
You can feel what he feels,
You can get him out of your mind,
Where as you keep smiling when you want to close your eyes,
What he did today remains forever in you,
When you look at him,
Everything that he done is superbly right,
When you smile at him,
You see his lips asking you to kiss him,
When you touch him,
You can get the feeling,
Feeling like you never think off,
And this is love…
This is how love happens…




-Me-

A part of the reason’s list

The smell of your body loiter in me,
The taste of your kiss is killing me,
These are a part of the reason happen to be,
That I will always keep near me.

The sound of your voice eavesdrop on my ears,
The soothingly feel of your hands linger around me,
These impinge on me in many ways,
And I bet you could never comprehend.

You gave me love from deep inside you,
Everyday you can make me feel blue,
While the peace in your eyes seeking for me,
Both manage to make me feel comfortable.

You are a gift that sent to me,
I appreciate what He create you to be,
And I just can feel,
That you and me are meant to be.




-Me-

11 Hours

11 hours,
I’m happy being besides you,
Accompany you driving,
We talk,
We drink,
We eat,
We smile,
We laugh,
We gag,
We do everything together.

11 hours,
You listened to my lame story,
You give fed back with nodding your head,
You laugh when I do those stupid jokes,
You fondle my hair gently so that I can sleep well,
You wipe my tears with your docile fingers,
You hold my hand tightly to keep me feel safe,
You worried when I have a bad headache,
You knead my head and neck just to ensure I feel more contented,
All these are the best memory you disseminate in me.

11 hours,
Having you by my side making me more tender,
I feel myself better,
I tell that you are the last guy in my life to my mother,
So that after this she won’t bothers,
I just want us to be together,
Like you said…
That we are destined to meet each other…

Please…
Please hold on to your words,
Please embrace on your promise,
I don’t ask much,
It’s because I love you bunch.




-Me-

Give up?

I tak nak kecewakan parent you and i tak nak kecewakan you.

Honey...
From your phrase, you already show that you are giving up on our relation.
Everything doesn't look fine for us kan?
Everything that I've done is not enough right?

I'm not strong enough to handle all this.
Just let me hold to our love till my last breathe.
Thanks Hun...
Thanks a lot.

Bila rasa ini rasamu

Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu
Dan tak pernah ku sesali itu
Seluruh jiwa telah kuserahkan
Menggenggam janji setiaku

Ku mohon jangan jadikan semua ini
Alasan kau menyakitiku
Meskipun cintamu tak hanya untukku
Tapi cobalah sejenak mengerti

Bila rasaku ini rasamu
Sanggupkah engkau menahan sakitnya
Terhianati cinta yang kau jaga
Coba layangkan kembali
Betapa hancurnya hati ini kasih
Semua telah terjadi

Aku memang terlanjur mencintamu

Eternally love

Awak…
Kemana-mana saja kita pergi bersama.
Masa saya penuh dengan awak.
Awak sangat penting dalam hidup saya.
Penting macam kucing perlukan makanan untuk hidup.
Ya.
Saya tao awak suka kucing.
Sebab tu saya samakan dengan kucing.

Awak…
Setiap masa kita bersama.
Saya rasa sangat gembira.
Saya suka tengok awak ketawa besar.
Tune radio guna kaki.
Memang cari maut.
Tapi sekadar mao tunjuk jari.

Awak…
Awak bukan sejenis beban yang berjenama Gucci di bahu saya.
Awak juga bukan kain tebal berjenama Channel yang membalut tubuh saya dari panas dan sejuk.
Awak juga bukan pengalas kaki berjenama Roberto Cavalli nun jauh di bawah.
Awak juga bukan wangian berjenama Vera Wang yang disembur setiap kali saya lepas mandi.
Dan awak sememangnya bukan ikatan berjenama Chopard di pergelangan tangan saya.
Tapi…
Awak adalah awak.
Awak adalah semuanya untuk saya.
Luar dan dalam.

Awak…
Kadang-kadang awak tak sedar.
Awak tak sedar yang saya tak penah lepas dari pandang awak.
Awak tahu kenapa?
Sebab saya takut saya tak dapat pandang awak lagi esok.

Awak…
Awak tahu apa yang saya harap setiap kali buka mata?
Berharap agar ada mesej dari awak.
Walaupun awak tak romantik, tapi awak sweet.
Apa saja yang awak buat, awak mesej, sudah cukup buat saya tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata.

Awak…
Saya takut.
Saya takut kehilangan awak.
Tapi saya sedar.
Ini masalah yang saya cari.
Masalah yang membebani diri.
Saya juga tak minta semua ini terjadi.
Saya bukan Tuhan untuk menghalang semua ni.

Awak…
Saya harap pilihan saya adalah yang tepat.
Tuhan sentiasa ada tunjukkan saya jalan.
Walaupun saya berjalan bengkang bengkok.
Tapi saya tahu.
Hati saya terhadap awak lurus dan tulus.

Awak…
Jika suatu hari nanti saya pergi.
Pergi dan takkan kembali.
Saya nak awak tahu.
Yang saya sayang awak.
Saya cinta awak
Saya halalkan semuanya.
Dan saya maafkan awak dari hari pertama kita jumpa sampai sekarang.




-Me-

You

Just because I,
And I will always love you,
I only can't help,
Loving you...

How wonderful life is now,
You're in the world,
You're besides me,

You're my everything...



-Me-

You appear in my dream

When I saw him walking down the street,
I didn't know what to say,
You're face were glowing,
You're eyes were shining,
You're smile was so kind
Once I saw you,
I wanted you to be mine...

Maybe I don't have the sweet smile you like
Maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
Maybe I don't know how to communicate with others
Maybe I don't wear the proper attire that you like
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

Now,
We’re in love
The things that I know is you love me
And I love you bunch
I willingly to explore the world with you
I willingly to experience my life together with you
I splurge my tears just to be besides you
And I swear that I can show you what love means…



-Me-

The truth for tonight

Rasa diri aku sangat kecil

Rasa diri aku sangat kerdil

Rasa diri aku sangat lemah

Im trapped in a wonderful scene that i create.

And I'm holding on what my best friend say...

If he really wants you, he will somehow get you

i love u so much.



-Me-

Permintaan kecil yang bermakna.

Terima kasih sebab terima aku dalam hidup kau.
Terima kasih sebab layan aku sama seperti seorang permaisuri.
Terima kasih sebab sentiasa ada bersama aku.
Terima kasih sebab bertahan dengan perangai aku.
Apa pun yang telah kau buat,
Aku cinta kau ibarat laila dan majnun.
Tapi…
Hanya satu yang kerap bermain dalam kotak pemikiran aku.
Sampai bila…
Sampai bila kau akan layan aku macam ni?
Sampai bila kau akan angkat aku sebagai permaisuri?
Sampai bila kau akan menahan diri melayan karenah aku?
Sampai bila kau boleh berada di setiap penjuru hidup aku?

Sakit hati…
Ya.
Sangat sakit hati kalau aku fikir apa yang akan jadi.
Aku bakal akan jadi kerepek ubi?
Nah!
Tak mungkin!
Mungkin aku bakal jadi sport car yg remuk akibat accident.
Mungkin aku akan jadi rumah yang hangus terbakar.
Ya.mungkin.
Kemungkinan yang bakal terjadi selepas kebenaran menunjukkan dirinya di pojok senja.

Aku juga ingin menjadi seperti satelit.
Memancarkan kasih sayang kepada kau di seluruh pelusuk lubang yg kau ada.
Aku ingin menjadi hujan.
Mencurah cinta dan sayang atas kepala dan diri kau.
Aku ingin menjadi udara.
Agar kau dapat menyedut aku masuk ke dalam diri kau.
Aku ingin menjadi matahari.
Supaya kau sentiasa sihat setelah terima vitamin dari cahaya yang aku beri.

Hanya satu pintaku…
Percaya lah aku.
Percaya bahawa aku juga mampu memberi kau surga dunia.
Aku mampu membuat kau terbang di awan tanpa menjejak kaki di bumi lagi.

Hidup aku terlalu sesak dan lemas dengan kau.
Aku gembira aku mati.
Aku mati dalam tangan kau.
Aku dah biasa hari-hari aku dengan kau.
Jangan rampas kau dari aku.

Tolong.




-Me-

My everything

You’re the first thing I think of,
Every single time when I open my eyes,
You’re the last thing I think of,
Every time I close my eyes.

You are everything that I want,
You be your own self when you’re with me,
I’m glad that you show your true color,
And I can know u better.

Day after day our love getting strong,
My love would never be wrong,
Because of this I thank my God,
Thanks for sending me my lord.

I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you,
Neither a thing that may irritate you,
It because I care for you so much,
And I love you bunch.



-Me-

I’ll stand by you

I hate seeing your seething face,
I’ll make everything just to make you amaze,
I love your smile,
Because of that I can drive thousand miles.

I can read your facial expression,
I don’t need you to mention,
Everything happen just let me know,
Because I hate being low.

I love you bunch,
Until I can’t munch,
No matter what had happen to you,
I’ll stand by you.



-Me-

The guardian angel of mine

When I first saw him,
I distinguish that he can make me dim,
I knew that God sent me the guardian angle from heaven,
And my heart is given.

His smile can take my breathe away,
His laugh can nudge my heart everyday,
I never feel like this before,
And I love him more and more.

He promised to bring me to the moon,
Besides moon, stars suddenly loom,
This is the pleasure of our romance,
And I’m waiting for us to dance.

I have a wonderful love song,
Surely I want you to sing along,
It’s all about our life together,
That promise to be forever.

With you, there’s nothing to resist,
The irresistible is persist,
You accept me no matter what,
And I love you with all of my heart.

Thanks God for sending me the greatest gift,
You make my life and my heart in glee,
I love you for thousands reasons,
And one thing is sure, having you is the luckiest day ever.




-Me-

You and me forever

You’re in my dreams,
You’re in my thoughts,
You’re always there in my belief,
You’re the reason why I’m being here,
You’re my motivation in living the life in future,
You’re the raison d'être of my happiness,
You’re more than my friends,
You’re more than my enemy,
You’re more than someone special in my life,
You’re more than anything in every single way,
I be in love with you,
No matter what will happen,
It won’t ever shred us apart,
Because you and me forever,
And we stay until the closing stages.



-Me-

I do

Slap on the wrist of waiting

16 hours,
Waiting like on my last legs,
Proud of the sky-scraping patient,
How can you countenance this?
I miss you so much,
I can’t portray the longing feeling,
If you can feel it,
You won’t believe the intense of it,
Bet that you won’t manage to handle it,
The one who’s suffer is me,
Still,
I’m waiting,
Waiting for tomorrow to come,
Please keep your promise,
Promise that you won’t ever leave me,
Promise that you won’t forget bout me,
Promise that you love me what ever will happen next,
And why I’m still here?
Because,
The reasons of your promise…




-Me-

A short notice

I can’t sleep,
I can’t even eat,
Waiting for the phone ring,
Abruptly half of my body is dying,
While you’re contented there,
I’m suffering here,
The uneasy feeling covered all around me,
How can I run from it?
But I manage to swathe it,
The audacious inside is too strong,
Too strong to be knock down,
Suddenly my hand phone beeping,
You make my temperature reheat.



-Me-

Dear love…

I miss you so much,
I can’t breathe when I know that you’re not around,
I can’t sleep when I know that you’re not with me,
I can’t eat when I know you’re not there to finish my meal,
I can’t smile even though you’re smiling there,
I can’t pay any attention,
I can’t give any direction,
I can’t even hear your name being mention,
My life mourn,
How can I stop the uneasy inside?
How can I impede the pressure in me?
How can I obstruct the sadness from penetrate within?
God…
I miss you…
I miss you so much…



-Me-

Waiting for you

As I look into your eyes,
I know there’s truth,
But I’m afraid if there’s still have some lies,
That may hurt me which I want it to loath.

I wonder if you’ll ever think about me,
I don’t want this thing to be,
No one else will ever complete me,
Like what u did to me.

I always said that your eyes is like a star,
It shining brightly towards me,
Now I’m looking at the bright shining star,
Wondering you’ll miss me.

Without you by my side,
I’m holding on with all that I’ve got,
Even though my body feeble,
But my heart is not.

No matter how far we are,
No matter how much space between us,
I’m waiting for you until I’m flare,
Even though the day already dusk.

I tried to be happy because I know you’re happy,
But deep inside I’m so unhappy,
I just want to tell you that I love you,
More than everyone could ever love you.

There’s thousands obstacles in front of us,
I’m willing to elapse it together with you,
I always there in your heart,
And surely you are there in mine too.

I’ll be waiting for you here,
I won’t ever disappear,
No matter what we’re going through,
I can’t lose and I love you.




-Me-

No doubt on me

Do not doubt how much I like you,
I know that God create me for you,
From the first time we met,
I promise that you won’t ever regret.

Do not doubt how much I sacrifice for you,
I left everything behind because I want to be with you,
There’s no other important thing need to be hide,
Rather than being with you by my side.

Do not doubt how much I care for you,
I willingly to do anything for you,
To ensure everything are delightfully,
So it will be learn by heart endlessly.

Do not doubt how much I miss you,
Every single second I count to be with you,
Even though the time is getting slender,
We appreciate it when we’re together.

Do not doubt how much I need you,
I’m always thinking about you,
Optimist that you’ll be besides me everlastingly,
And we’re getting old together like Noah and Ally.

Do not doubt how much I love you,
I have given my heart to you,
I have given my life too,
And appreciate me like I did to you.





-Me-

Surreptitious consign

I need a surreptitious consign,
A place to throw the unneeded feelings,
A place where nobody knows,
A place where others can’t find me,
I just need a space to cry,
A seclusion place so that no ones can laugh at me,
So that I won’t embarrass my own self,
Will somebody help me



-Me-

The sad story

Every night I fall asleep,
Thinking that you won’t ever leave me,
I want every second,
You’re always besides me.

Until I wake up,
The first thing I do is text you,
I wish I could have you,
Have you next to me.

I fight with the feeling inside,
Fight from not getting too deep,
But I can’t help it,
It’s already cavernous.

I’m hurt,
I don’t ask too much,
I just need you,
Your love,
Like I did to you.

This is the hardest thing that I do,
It’s comes naturally,
The love inside is just for you,
But I know,
You’re split to two,
Even though I’m hurt inside,
I want you to know that,
I always love you.




-Me-