Haiku Rainbow

Stunning with its own color,
Scatter all around the world,
Make me exuberant in continue living.


-Me-

Adieu My Love…

Besides those haze,
Deep down inside me,
There is thousand of worship,
The voice of heart already fasten everything,
No body knows,
Where’s love,
Where’s the affection,
Where’s the fondness,
It will never be the same again…

Even though my presence is just for a moment,
It is not your fault falling in love again,
I will go far-off and won’t ever come back,
Adieu my love…

Now,
I’m leaving,
Leaving those wound and twinge,
Leaving our story,
Leaving our memories,
Leaving the reminiscences behind,
Somewhere that only I know,
Only I know.

Adieu my love…

-Me-

Love Vs Hate

I hate the way you greet me at the first time we met.
I hate the way you made me foresee your every text.
I hate the way you keenly talk to me on the phone every single minutes of the day.
I hate the way you showed your introverted when our first date.
I hate the way you hugged me awkwardly.
I hate the way you treat me when we’re going out.
I hate the way you hold my hands every time we walk together.
I hate the way you sleep because your face shows that you are free from any problems..
I hate the way you eat with so much enthusiasm.
I hate the way you smell every single second when I’m with you.
I hate the way you placate me when I’m fuming at you.
I hate the way you teach me to be more patience, endurance, hope and faith.
I hate the way you call me by my full name when your resentment is on the peak.
I hate the way you choose my attire when I don’t know what to wear.
I hate the way you ask me to stop cursing others when they doing wrong.
I hate the way you sneeze every morning after you wake up.
I hate the way you forgive all the wrong doings that I have done.
I hate the way you kiss my forehead every time I shake my hand with you.
I hate the way you laugh when both of us getting crazy.
I hate the way you involved in my stupid wild activities.
I hate the way you endeavor in getting things that I want.
I hate the way you stare at me when I put on my contact lens and asked whether it’s hurt or not.
I hate the way you drive my car and acting like you’re a taxi driver.
I hate the way you gently speak to me when I’m wrong.

But the most important thing,
I hate myself because I can’t hate you like I picture it to be.
I can’t hate you at all.
Not even close,
Not even a bit,
Not even at all…

P/s: I hate the way I ♥ you wholeheartedly and I know you do love me too.

-Me-

Sunrise

I need sun to light up my darkness,
I need sun to destroy the shadow,
I need sun to dim up my confusion,
I need sun to warm up the cold in me,
I need sun to make me look brighter than before…

And yes…
At the moment in time,
I’m waiting for the sunrise to emerge…

-Me-

Let bygone be bygone...

Hurt…
Yes. It is.
No matter how badly a thing is hurting us,
Sometimes letting it go hurts even worse…

Bye my used to be lover, sweetheart, heartthrob.
Be a great husband, father and a family's leader.

sincerely,
-ME-

Welcome Darling

21st May 2010
Welcome to this world baby…
This picture was taken when he’s age is about 5 hours.
He is very small.3.50 kg. I can lift him by using my left hand.
Can I have that weight? Sigh…

You don't know what its like to hold a newborn baby in your arms and smell the top of his head.
You don't know what its like closing his mouth when he's yawning and smell his mouth.
You don't know what it's like to hold him tightly and listen to the baby's heartbeat.
You don't know the motherly feeling that suddenly grasp inside you once you touch and hold the baby.
It is a very WONDERFUL moment.
Trust me.



P/s: BTW, this is my cousin’s son ;)

A vacation a time of relaxes. I really enjoy vacation because I don’t think about problems, works or anything. When I went to Penang last week, it was fun I have ever had on vacation. By the way, vacation- a period of time to relax, a period of time used for oneself.

I can still remember how excited I was before take off; I mean it felt like forever while I’m driving alone to take off. Just all the anticipation that was inside of me had just made the wait even longer for me. Finally, when I reached the Penang Bridge, I was so overjoyed I could hardly contain myself.

This is my first trip after being unemployed and after finishing my practicum. Even though I stay in Perlis, little did I know that its kind a like 2 or 3 times I went to Penang for a holiday? Such a waste isn’t it?

Penang is a very nice place. I went to Batu Ferringhi. It has a few small shops selling souvenirs and beach necessities. There are many stalls selling a variety of goods set up along the road at night. If you're looking for cheap clothes, fabrics, souvenirs, electronic items, watches, DVDs, CDs and more, then the Pasar Malam along the road is the place for you.

The Pasar Malam is very long and you can see varieties of restaurant there such as Tarbush Restaurant, Lebanon Restaurant, The Ship and stuff. This is just like Pasar Malam in Haadyai. After a long day of exploring the diverse offering of Penang, my tired and aching muscles already screaming out for a relaxing massage. Tiredness and drowsiness are haunted me and I went to fish massage there. This is my first attempt in trying this kind of massage. Before this, I just went to foot massage but this package is include with fish spa.

I am scared to death when the spa owner asked me to put down both of my foot. Automatically I said to her that I don’t even eat fish and idiotically why should I let my own foot being eaten by fish? But after for a while, (after praising to Allah thousands times) I put my foot inside the water and I can see a lot of fish attacking my foot. SUMPAH GELI.

The Spa owner told me that this treatment is very nice. Actually, those fish are used for various reasons such as for foot, facial and body treatment as well as for the natural treatment of skin disease.

In point of fact, the fish ridding it of all affected and dead skin areas, leaving the healthy skin untouched to continue to row and repair. It is painless when the fish bite your foot. After 5 minutes i let my foot inside the water, the fear towards the fish's bite is missing and the process is became wonderful and pleasant. Furthermore, the fish treatment are also can release fatigue, increase blood circulation, and aid in relaxation.

More over, my favorite place of all in Penang is Gurney Drive. It is very hard to find a parking space there. I would walk along the hawker stalls from Mc Donald until the end of the stall, sit there feeling the breeze and talking and laughing away, watching the sea rushing to the shore. I love to eat Penang Asam Laksa. The aroma of the dish is very pleasant.


Since I already told about the basic understanding of what I did after being unemployed, I'll close on this, gather more information on where you will be staying if you choose to go away with friends (but i love and prefer to go alone) and find a great place and activities that you can do that can remains as your sweet memory.

Is this what we call CLOSE FRIEND?

For me, CLOSE FRIEND is something that needs to be care of, like sibling. Besides, CLOSE FRIEND also something special, something that everyone needs and something that I live my life together with now.

I share everything that I want with them. Even though not everything I share with you guys but at least something that nuisance me, something that for me its important to be shared and surely something that make me happy which I bet for you guys either. When I really need somebody to talk, I seek for their advice. I seek for their love. I seek for their opinion. I seek for their estimation. I seek for their rational thought.

If I don’t want to talk about something that bothered me, I won’t.

If there something that anxious me, I don’t care to share, I won’t.

If there something that personal for me and I still can handle it, I won’t share either.

Dear my close friends…
You guys know that how much I care for you.
You guys know that I never tell lies to you guys.
You guys know how I appreciate so much being in this friendship with you.
You guys know how much I ready myself to be trouble together with you.
You guys know how much I spend my time, my thought and everything just for you.
You guys know how much I need you.
And I bet that indisputably, you guys know how much I love you.

I don’t label my friends with ridiculous name such as irrational, busybody and stuff.

I don’t call my friends with nonsensical name such as stupid, asshole and stuff.

I don’t even disregard you guys when once I call you guys CLOSE FRIENDS.


Listen here friend whose I used to call you CLOSE FRIEND…

1. Please stop telling me those irrelevant stories about you and your love life with your boyfriend and your scandal. It’s hurt me much when I discover that you label me as an irrational and busy body friend. If you don’t want to share those stories, please don’t to a certain extent than back-stab me. You seek for opinion, I gave it. It’s ok if you don’t want to accept it or not but do not act like you agree and in the end, you tell your scandal who is my friends too that I am a busy body and irrational friend. Then again, without doubt you tell the others how bad am I. Yes I am neither a good person nor a perfect person. I also had done wrong, mistake and blunder. Nevertheless I never go over the same slip-up that I used to do. I just don’t want you to be in my situation. That’s all. I want the best thing happen to my CLOSE FRIEND even though it didn’t happen to me.

2. Please stop telling lies to your CLOSE FRIENDS. This is because I never tell lies towards my close friends. I willingly not do know anything rather than being lied. Once I’ve been cheated, it’s hard for me to trust you anymore.

3. Please stop seeking for my advice. I don’t want towards the end, I been blamed. I don’t mind if you deviate with me. Stop me if I’m wrong. I’m fine with it but please don’t blame everything on me. If you think my advice is illogical, don’t follow.

4. Please stop viewing yourself as you are one of my greatest friends ever. I hate that. Showing to others that you care for me really makes my eyes and my heart prickly. You love to show to others that you are a very nice person which you are not. You act like you are the benevolently person but I know the truth. The way you talk, the way you move, the way you present yourself really contradictory to the real of yourself. In certain time and situation, its okay being hypocrite but do not overact. Its okay being charlatan but do not exaggerate it. I hate faker. I have fraud. I hate plastic!

5. Please stop gossiping horrific about your own friend who married with a nuptial man with his first wife whose you don’t even know at all. You said that you just listen to the first wife story. It’s okay. Thing which is not okay when you started to open your big mouth telling how bad your CLOSE FRIEND are. That’s not what I call ‘listen only’. I called that back-stab. Yes it’s your friend’s fault marrying a man who is already married. But you don’t have the right to make the complicated things being more complicated. Let them settle by themselves. It’s hard to settle things if there is a middle person or why don’t you just ignore or keep your mouth shut? Please who I used to call friend before to stop interfering others marriage. Please.

6. By the way, please cross my name in your close friends list. I don’t want to be apart of it. Not even close, not even a bit, not even at all. I am very proud if you can do it.

Try this!

You need to answer these questions by starting with the first alphabet of your name.

Example:

1. What is your name : Nad

2. A four Letter Word : Need

3. A boy's Name : Naqi

4. A girl's Name : Nadine

5. An occupation : Neurosurgeon

6. A colour : Neon pink

7. Something you'll wear : Night gown

9. A food : Nachos

10. Something found in the bathroom: Neutrogena shampoo

11. A place : New York

12. A reason for being late: Not able to wake up?

13. Something you'd shout : Not again!

14. A movie title : Notebook

15. Something you drink : Nut and chocolate ice blended

16. A musical group : Nirvana

17. An animal : Nag

18. A street name : Netherlands street

19. A type of car : Nissan skyline GTR 35

20. The title of a song : No one – Alicia Keys

How about yours?

Mine is I need a Jew because i was horny.

Shitman!
No i am not horny.
Not even close,
Not even a bit,
Not even at all.

ahahahaha
How bout yours?

2 weeks left ♥

I really can’t wait to abscond from this school. It’s not because I can’t plunk myself to be a teacher but I just can’t stand with the environment. Teachers, school politics, busy body teachers, and stuff. Normal isn't it? SIGH.

I love the students. They are all very enthusiastic in learning English which is the reason why I still am here until the last day of my practicum.

Even though sometimes they kind of like insurgent towards my order but yet still they’ll finish my work. Form 4 students. What do you want to expect from them. Isn’t it? This is their maturity time to look forward in their new era of life but hitherto, they have to remind themselves that next year they are sitting for a big exam which will change their entire life.

I pity them at first. This is because in 1 class, 38 students, 4 students only can understand perfectly, speaking (grammar mistakes here and there, slang and stuff which i don't mind at all), and utter using right pronunciation. I know, I’m not that supremely vast but I learn from mistake. I learn to be good. I learn to up graded myself and yes until now I try to make myself better. Even Mat Salleh also converse in tunggang terbalik grammar.

I really want to see my students do extremely well in English. I don’t mind if they are using broken English. Nevertheless they have to keep on learning those things and never give up. At the present, it almost 4 month I’ve been here and I notice that my students getting better and better.


4 SP and 4 T 1, I am very proud of you guys.